The Awakening of a Shaman - My First Glimpse Into Infinite Possibilities

The Awakening of a Shaman

This story was originally published in the Common Sentience series book Ascension: Divine Stories of Awakening the Whole and Holy Being Within, alongside contributions from spiritual voices including William Henry and JJ Hurtak.

Spiritual awakening rarely begins with clarity. More often, it begins during times of loss, uncertainty, or profound life change. Looking back now, I can see that the events which once felt like the unraveling of my life were actually the beginning of something far deeper—a journey of healing, discovery, and transformation that would eventually lead me to the path of the shaman.

The Awakening of a Shaman (As published): The night of my spiritual awakening was a November night in 2010. I've shared this experience only with those souls I most trust. I now share it with the world in most profound gratitude for the experience, hoping it helps other souls with similar stories traverse their awakening more gracefully and without fear.

Before that night, I was oblivious that anything might exist beyond the physical world I could see, touch, or experience with my ordinary human senses. For me, there was nothing beyond that limited human perception.

In the days & weeks preceding that night, nothing out of the ordinary occurred. That night itself was typical. I had unloaded the dishwasher, cleaned the countertops, swept the floor, sent texts to my college-age daughters to check in with a good night, and off to bed I went and fell asleep quickly.

What I was about to experience that night was real and not a dream nor dreamlike. I was very aware of my body and conscious mind in a manner I had never experienced, although I could not move my body as though paralyzed.

When they first came into my awareness, they appeared to be whitish opaque beings with beautiful blue eyes. I would learn later through shamanic training the terminology "luminous beings," which describes them perfectly. They were divinely beautiful, and even today, I still miss their presence.

I wasn't fearful of them & never questioned their motives in those moments or after. It was as if I knew them intimately from another time & place. My only anxiety during the experience was that I was hyper-aware but could not move my body. These beings never spoke to me directly but at all moments looked upon me lovingly.

They were there suddenly, and I woke from sleep instantly in awareness of their presence. It seemed like I was still in my bed, yet around me was a void, and it was just them and me in this void. As they gazed upon me, I became aware one was male, and one was female. They had not spoken yet, as I watched them begin to form a very bright, mesmerizing ball of energy between them at chest level. They seemed to create it with their minds, and it continued to acquire more power, size, and light.

When it stopped expanding, the male reached out with his hands and took the ball of energy they had created between them and, with both hands, seemed to push this ball of radiating energy into my forehead. At that time, I did not understand why this radiating energy was placed within my forehead other than my brain was there. I was fully asleep within the matrix & oblivious to the spiritual world & energy body until this experience.

The moment the male being placed the energetic ball into my forehead, my body became completely saturated with an electrical pulsing. Although not painful, intense is an understatement. Upon that initial surge, I felt myself suddenly exit my physical body and then relax back down into it again. Like I was pushed out by the energetic force for an instant.

After this, I'm staring at them, stunned by what happened, still not afraid but not understanding. They are staring back at me, still lovingly, but watching over me intently. I'm aware they are waiting for a reaction of some sort. They seemed a bit concerned in those moments. It's at that point I first perceive them speak with each other. I don't think they planned to have to communicate in my presence. I did not attempt to respond nor consider responding. Looking back, I've often wondered if I was unable.

The conversation I recall was as follows:

Female: We must leave her now and trust the process worked.

Male: No, we must try again. We must know it was successful before we leave.

Female: (adamantly disagreeing) She may not survive another attempt. We can not chance that.

Male: We must. We need to know now, there will not be another chance.

The female seems worried but agreeable. Another ball of energy begins to form between them. I feel anxious, but again, I am fully aware I can't move, and the love emanating from them is calming. I can sense her worry, though, and I understand that something was supposed to transpire that didn't, and it could harm me to try again. It's almost as if they are controlling my ability to feel fear through their energy of love.

The second ball continues to grow and become more radiant and powerful. I recall the female saying, "That's enough. She can't handle full level again". He agrees and takes the second ball in his hands, and she warns, "She may not survive this." He says, "It's our only chance. We must KNOW it worked .", and he places the second sphere of radiating energy into my forehead.

Instantly, everything in my being, everything I am, turns off like a computer or electronic device. All I sensed at that point was static. It seemed to last for a minute or two. I had no thoughts, no emotion, but was surrounded by static, or… I was static. I still have no words for those moments, only a perception of static. As if I was non-existent in that time…

As suddenly as I was 'switched off', I felt myself 'switch on' again. I instantly was aware of their presence and them staring intensely at me. I hear the female exclaim with relief, "She's coming back online. She's going to make it." The only way I can explain those next few moments is that I felt myself booting back up. It felt like a computer reset of sorts. Within that moment, I felt my physical body again. It was buzzing from head to toe with an energetic resonance I can't explain. I suddenly became aware of my physical surroundings again in my bedroom. I'm awake, I can move, I'm breathing, and the energy pulsating through me is unlike anything I've experienced before. It was incredible and terrifying at the same time.

As my awareness of my physical surroundings came back, the beings disappeared from my perception. Strangely, I was already sitting up in bed, and my arms were straight out in front of me with my palms pointed towards my bedroom ceiling. I can not put words to the intensity of the energy I felt pulsating through my body. More concerning, this same energy was jetting from my palms, and I could SEE this energy flowing powerfully from my palms with my physical eyes.

At this moment, I'm not concerned about the insane fact I can see this energy with my physical eyes. I'm simply terrified to move my hands, afraid I may harm anything this energy is directed towards. That may help you to understand the intensity of what I was feeling and seeing.

I'm aware that I was somehow placed in this position of sitting upright with my palms positioned upwards before I 'woke up', & I'm questioning if this was to protect me, my surroundings, or both. In hindsight, it's as if they knew that would be my first fear and positioned me in a way I could explore that fear first. Exploring I am. I'm staring at this energy flowing from my palms & I'm terrified. I'm searching my mind for answers—my very logical mind.

I'm frantic, and my mind is racing & attempting to process what is happening. It took me only moments to go direct from terrified to paranoia. I laugh now, but in that space, I knew the CIA, or maybe even the Men in Black, were going to knock on my door at any moment. I considered spider man was real. I considered every superhero & sci-fi movie I'd ever watched was real at that point.

Then in my already irrational state, the most terrifying of all thoughts occurred. I may never see my daughters again if the government, CIA, or MIB came to get me. I wondered briefly if I should write them a note and leave it under the pillow and how long I had left before they showed up at my door. Perhaps those whitish ET beings were still here too, and perhaps they would bring their ship and not return me. I thought the intensity I could feel throughout my body would remain & there would be no way to hide it.

I sat there in bed in that exact position for about 15 minutes, considering every possible explanation. Nothing rational could explain any of this, so my mind went to a space I didn't know well. The other side of rationale and logic, whatever that was, I had never been there. I knew this was stuff the paranormal & superheroes were made of, and that was not logical. The intensity of the energy pulsating throughout my entire body and flowing from of my palms could not be processed rationally. Not to mention I could see it: sparkles, millions of little 'sparkles' shooting straight upwards from my palms to the ceiling.

I had never experienced paranoia of this nature. I want to interject here with personal information. I smoked pot once when I was 17 and was sick for two days. That ended my era of mind-altering substances. I abhor not being in control of my body and my decisions. There was no drugs or alcohol use involved. I need to be very clear on that.

After fifteen minutes or so, I was catching my breath. I was very aware of my breath & could hear myself breathing in a way I had never experienced before. Despite everything, I was trying to be rational if there was a chance of rationality to be had. I started moving my hands carefully to see if the energy affected any part of my environment. It didn't seem so, and I mustered enough bravery to get out of bed and venture to the kitchen in an attempt to process. I sat for hours eating cookies and milk and googling in a way that wouldn't draw attention from the CIA. You may laugh a little bit at the irrational paranoia…I do now!

I didn't even know what to search, and nothing I found online even closely compared unless it was science fiction. I was lost and still terrified someone would eventually show up at my door to escort me off to a containment place for superheroes or alien abduction studies and poke and prod at me. I wanted to call my daughters, but I didn't want to scare them with what I'd experienced. I also didn't want them to think I was crazy. I'd been a rock of stability for them growing up. I knew I wasn't crazy, but this was not logical.

When the shaking wore off, and my mind was exhausted, I walked back down that long hallway to the place it happened, crawled in bed, and cried myself to sleep. I'm not one to cry. I continued telling myself; I am a logical, rational human being.

6:00 AM alarm: Awake, check. Alive, check. Scared, check. I carefully walked to the kitchen to see if the empty package of cookies was there. That walk down the hallway, I contemplated that empty cookie package heavily. If it was there, that meant the events of last night all happened. It was real. As I turned the corner to the kitchen, there was the empty glass and cookie package. My body was still tingling to a lesser degree, and my palms felt hot & tingly. Whatever I had experienced was undeniable & indisputable.

What had happened to me that night was my spiritual awakening. I'm now confident it was planned long before I arrived in this incarnation. For the next several years, I would spend all my extra time on spiritual studies & in spiritual communities forming friendships with others with similar experiences. I would discover& develop divine gifts I held as a human being that, before my awakening, I would have never fathomed as possible.

I leave you with these thoughts:

• We awaken not only to learn more of our complex world and universe around us but to remember who we are. Humans are extraordinary beings with divine gifts that have laid dormant for millennia. We are rapidly waking as a collective to the truth of our extraordinary divinity & gifts.

• We have unimaginable support from many races of divine beings from other places and dimensions. They are among us and helping us to heal & rediscover who we are as a race of beings with extraordinary gifts ourselves. Do not fear. They come to us out of tremendous love to help us awaken to all that has been hidden.

• Lastly, some experience awakening as I did, and some more gradually. Each is perfectly orchestrated & divinely tailored to our individual needs. As we awaken, individually & as a collective, we must have open arms, hold a sacred space of love & acceptance for all who are joining us. Welcome to the Great Awakening. We've been waiting for YOU...and YOU are extraordinary.

With Infinite Love,

Julia

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